:D

I dont know why..

but my self esteem had drop a bit this few days..

i want my confidence back again..

why am i feeling afraid?

why am i afraid that i will fail?

why am i expecting too much of myself??

am i going to achieve them?


i want success.. it had given me this stress..

and what i wanna do now is to hug my pillow to sleep,
and gain my confidence back tomorrow..

oh my, i sound so akward..
but dont worry my friends, i think this feeling is resulted from pre-pms..


i will be feeling better soon.. i hope.. pms sucks..

I feel angry today..
i feel frustrated..
because of one irresponsible person, who firstly do not trust her commitee member..
Then why be in a commitee if u can't trust ur member?
and y of the empty promises?
and the last min work that u can't do, then pass it to other people at the very last minute..

CRAZY!!!

seriously, she sucks and should never become a leader or in this phrase, the vice president..
hello, please stop being the teachers pet..
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GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

i am damn angry today..
and stress out..
so many things to do.. tons of projects to finish out and 2 more journals, the problems, upcoming submissions, then presentations and then final test..

i hope all of my group members will give their full attention to the projects since the submission time is in 1 month and we are quite slacking.. please..

and i feel so ugly today
coz firstly i got bad hair day,
secondly i feel like shit today..
thirdly i have a pimple today because of all the stress..
then because of that person
and i am on diet, so diet=angry..

i am sooo lacking of post here!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha..

too busy..

with almost every weekdays of the two weeks holidays going back to sch and doing projects..
What a holiday!
spent doing projects???
hahaha..
sound soo hardworking..
hahahaha..

i am so in love with the song in my blog now!!
beautiful girl!!
am i am i 1!!
hahaha..
no shame me!

k lah..Tika know.. Tika not that pretty..
but tika tak kisah!!
at least the people around me are beautiful.. in and out..
and i am loved.. and i love them too..
That's all matter to me.. :)

and i am sure YOu THERE! YES! YOU! who are reading my blog now is beautiful!! ;)

ok.. Tika now very2 happy!
coz my Mumul is back! and can go lunching together2 in sch!!



YIPPI!!!
and i still miss food from ITAS! especially yong tau foo there..
we go lunch there somewhere this coming week k!

and i miss SAF!!
my sweety jaan..
she's busy with internship..
and when she'll back in sch in a few months time, it will be my turn for internship..
but neverless, we will try as much to squeeze our time together..

MUL N SAF!! THE TWO GORGEOUS GFS OF MINE!!
i wanna tell u guys u guys mean LOTS to me..
what a beautiful friendship i have..
with the most beautiful people..
:D

ok.. i got lots of photos i wanna update!!

firstly is saf's chalet..
it was her family chalet, but at last, only the 4 anak dara ended up sleeping there together at night.. :D It's so last minute as her family all went home.. and us, only bringing a small bag without anything to help us clean up the next morning don't really mind!!!

haha..
and u guys know what?
this is suppose to be a secret..
haha..
but right..
we actually ate mac for breakfast the next morning..
and we didn't brush our teeth before that..
haha.. not even bathe that morning..
coz we didnt bring toiletries..
and we even took bus 15 back home from east coast beach/ parkway busstop to Pasir ris!!
:p
and it is actually nice waking up in the morning and having a nice morning walk from costa sands chalet to mac to parkway..
The morning breeze is wonderful!!





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then there is this one day when nas is not working!! At last!!
and since s very very long time, at last we have a date from morning to the evening!
and i reach home at 7+ pm..
it is nice to get to date in the evening as we often only manage to date at night only as he's having internship during weekdays and working part time during weekends..
he is soo hardworking..
so different than me.. lazy.. haha..

ok lah.. its great that he accompany me go jogging at 8 in the morning to motivate me to jog together with him.. we jog from my place to pasir ris park and we go to the playground there to climb the spider web, which he only climb it as i am too tired after the jog..

and then we headed back home..
and then meet again in the evening and walk all around town on foot..
first he park his bike at dobhy ghaut area as he has no erp thingy and we cannot go into town..
then we walk to somerset, have some dinner there while looking at the stuffs they sold at the flea market.. (fuh! i just remembered that it was nearly a month ago!! its been soo long since i really update!!) and then walk back to the istana park.. and i pluck 1 flower and wear it on my hair.. :) and then we still walk to sim lim square to survey on the lap top there.. and all those while, i am wearing high heels.. my feet are screaming then! haha.. but i dont really mind coz i just love walking..



ok.. i am also quite distracted by seeing this yesterday! i saw trees being cut down..
i love trees.. i feel sad that people are cutting them away..


:(
people are truely being cruel to the environment..
i doubt that that was from a storm..



us to the rescue!!!
:p bluek.. how i wish so..
this pic taken in lab when we are bored when doing project..
and this is abigail/ abby which is 1 out of 6 of my grp members.. haha..

and i had watched that surf up penguin movie last friday..
i dont think that thestory is that fantastic, but i still enjoy wathching it with my bf..




and i am not sure when can i wear this shoe that i bought a month plus ago!
i love it!
but i dont wear high heels to sch..
and nowadays i always go to sch!
and dont like to merayap a lot!

Seriously, now if i am not in sch, i will be at home..
its weird, but since my sister is back living in the same roof with my family,
it feels complete..
and i enjoy being at home more..
even though sometimes we just quarrel and irritate each other a lot..
nevermind for having a missing dad for like 7years in my life..
Its weird..
even with no dad or a mia dad, this family feels more complete without him..
i know i have a complicated family..
i know i might not be rich, and having my mum as the sole breadwinner of the family,
but i promise u mummy, that i will study hard, and after i graduate from poly, i will help u .. i will make u the happiest mum in this world..
its hard to see my mum suffering..
but she's strong..
and i wanna be as strong as her too..
she's the pillar of support for me to be succesful and strive for what i want in life..
i love her..
my family, my motivation, my life..
:)
i am blessed to have a hardworking and determined mother..

and i am blessed to have an understanding bf.. he never complain whenever i talk a lot, me being irritating, being emo at times, having pms and all..
he's the one that i can talk to when i have insecurities..about my problems.. during moments of ups and downs..
he is like more than my bf, he is also my best friend..

and i am really lucky that my best friends/gfs/jaan also like him too..


photoshop by him.. the lirik is from my favourite malay song..

and oh, tomorrow i have to submit my brand management individual project where i have to make a poster.. i had done the poster and i love it lots..
i shall post it after tomorrow.. and now i have to seriously start doing a write out on the poster..


..you bring a smile in my life..

and mul tag everyone of her friends to do this..
and i shall do it..

Rules of the game:Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

MY TEN WEIRD OR NOT SO WEIRD FACTS:
1) i snooze my hp alarm for at least 3 times every morning before i actually wake up..
2) i don't usually comb my hair as even when i comb it, it will still look messy when it dry up..
3) i have to at least disturb my siblings everyday.. it feels akward if i don't disturb them..
4) i don't usually make my bed when i just got out of bed, instead i make it neat and tidy before i go to sleep.. zzzzz..
5) when i got bored at home, i scrub the toilet.. or just sleep..
6) i love baking and cooking, but i only cook seldomly..
7) i wait for my bf call every night but i end up calling him 1st every night..
8) i only love jogging as exercise but recently, am lazy to do it..
9) i can be emotional and moody.. when i'm in a bad mood i can shout like a mad B*TCH.. or cry like no one business..
10) i cry when watching sad or touching movies..
haha..

now i just tag anyone who's reading this.. haha.. coz i know only a few know my blog actually exist.. :p

I am blessed with these two gorgeous gfs..

i miss us 3 together!! the crazy times we spend together!!! I really miss the 3 of us bonding sessions we have by no matter what we do together.. at esplanade, window shopping, go library together, study for exams, conference calling, even just lepak anywhere and laugh and they looking for cute indian guys..

I MISS IT SOOO MUCH!!!

and MUL!!! when u're back in Singapore, we have a blast of time k..
miss u lots lah..
this coming SUNDAY!!!! yeah!! can't wait for it!!!

and i can talk on the phone for hours talking about everything or nothing at all again!!! yeah!!!

and.. my jaan had a date just now!! hehe..
all the best k jaan with him..

and now, i'm bored..
have to study for my 3 papers next week..
i had been doing revision since just now..

and the sucky thing is that i got a sorethroat..
and slight cough..
and my sister have flu, n i wish i will not get infected with it..
I HAVE EXAMS NEXT WEEK!!
i dont want to fall sick during exam time..

and to my dearest boyfriend,
i believe you have the great capabilities to go far,
believe in urself and u will succeed in the future,
don't let any obstacle destroy your big dream,
i will always be by ur side supporting u on whatever u do..
i love u dear, and i believe that u can do it..

i love you soo much my dear!!